I have some understanding when I read in scripture that people can be blinded spiritually. In my case what I experienced during my deliverance was something ‘whooshing’ off the top of my head. My hearing was blocked for a few seconds. I could hear the ‘whooshing’ sound but not the people talking around me. It felt like a large weight had been removed from the top of my head when whatever it was left me.
This happened when I was standing during a church worship service. I was calling out to God silently in my heart to help me. My husband and I had come to this church as new believers nine years earlier. In this local church the pastor was using manipulative methods in order to control the congregants. Legalism and the use of fear were some of the methods he used. I was in a difficult conflict within myself of whether to submit to him and his wife in order to try and get along in the church. I was asking God to help me in this way so that I might do what he wanted me to do. It was at this moment that I experienced the deliverance from him. This was the last church service that I attended at this church. The bond and hold the pastor had developed upon me was gone.
At home later that evening my husband and I turned on the radio and listened to a Christian program being broadcast called Night Sounds. The topic that evening was about spiritual abuse. We were ministered to by this program, recognizing that we were relating well to what was being said by this person. Then, a couple of days later we visited a Christian bookstore and I found a book on spiritual abuse titled ‘The Subtle Power of Spiritual Abuse’. This book helped to confirm that we were in an abusive situation with the pastor and the church. We were able to relate to the explanations and examples of spiritual abuse given in it and were able to identify and understand what had been happening to us.
I do believe that without the deliverance from the oppressive spiritual thing that came off my head, I would not have been able to find freedom and leave this church with confidence.
My next post will be about an experience I had while prophesying in a large church.